Thursday, February 26, 2009

So, I've not been back on here in a while. It's amazing how fast life catches up with you!.

My husband, (I'll just call him dh, for dear husband) is still very willing for us to give D/D a try. I know he understands the importance of at least trying this lifestyle for me. But, we continue to be frustrated by life just getting in the way. Many evenings, we are both too tired to even think of spanking (hard to beleive, I know!) Other times, our child needs and deserves attention that takes away from mommy and daddy's time together. When I first considered bringing up this sort of lifestyle to dh, I never anticipated that it would be so easy to convince him that this might actually be something that I need and desire, or that it might be something that actually helps our marriage. That part has been far easier than dealing with the distractions of life.

I would truly love to have a "my first spanking" post, but, at the moment, it hasn't happened. I know that time and patience are both important for such a big step in our marriage. At the same time, I don't want to let routines and habits become a barrier to something that I think we both want in this marriage.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Well, Valentine's Day came and went and no time for play for my husband and I. In fact, I wasn't even here on Valentine's Day. I was enroute to the other type of spanking that is a part of my life-the not very fun kind! Even when I know I have really messed up and actually deserve to be spanked, I so dread this! In fact, I was so nervous that I almost skipped it. But, I did show up, and it wasn't so bad. It probably should have been worse, but I think my nerves were very obvious. I don't know for sure that my anxiety made a difference, but I think it did. Even so, I'll be sore for a couple of days, and dear one will have to wait again. But I've got plans for a special night to come.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

So, I'm getting a discipline spanking this weekend, and, for the first time, I'm really nervous. I really don't want this type of spanking. I guess that proves that it is working as a deterrent to misbehavior for me.

On the positive side, my husband is getting more and more open to the idea of spanking me. He does acknowledge how much more peaceful and cooperative I am when I am being held accountable for my actions. Now that he knows that spanking is a part of my life that I want to keep, he's willing to explore this just for me. Thank God for a man like my sweetheart! Oh, and Happy Anniversary to us. I hope we have time for some spanking play tonight!