Monday, June 15, 2009

Trouble?

Well, I finally had enough and let my temper get the best of me in an argument with Bo. I still don't get how he can be so calm and cool while we are arguing, and I get louder and harsher by the minute. it only took a couple of misplaced and disrespectful comments for Bo to proclaim, "just wait until tonight"!

Luckily, the argument blew over fairly quickly, and we are all lovey-dovey again. In the recent past, that would be the end of it. Bo has so often said that he has to be a little mad at me to punish. Well, things may be a-changin'! He has assured me that I am still going to be punished because he loves me and it is for my own good. Wow! I'm not sure I ever thought I would hear those words come from his mouth. Nothing has happened yet because our sweetie is still awake, but I really do feel that this time, he means it!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Stress Relief

I haven't had the nerve yet to ask Bo for a stress relief spanking although I've wanted to quite a few times. The next two weeks promise to be very stressful as I have a major project deadline coming up. And, being the person that I am, procrastination is biting me in the ass. Now would be the perfect time to ask for a pre-emptive strike (pun intended :) But Bo has only recently become comfortable enough with punishment/reminder spankings. He has admitted that he has a hard time spanking if he isn't at least a little mad at me. And. I'm not sure he would "get" how a spanking would help me relieve stress.

So, I am wondering if it would be more stressful than helpful to try to discuss this with Bo right now. My motivation is in low gear right now, and I think a stress reliever would get me out of my funk and in to some serious work. I guess I will take it day by day to see how crazy I get in the next few days. Bo may just get mad enough to be more than willing to help me relieve my (and his) stress!


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Go Forth!

Because we are still so new at this DD thing, I tend to get worried about whether we are doing things "right," or if we are still on track. And every time the anxiety kicks it up a notch, Bo and I end up closer than ever.

This weekend, I had been feeling just blah. There really wasn't anything I could point to that would explain why I was feeling this way. I tried talking to Bo about it, but my inner witch came out quickly; things went south in a hurry. I really do wish I had the ability to self-edit, but me, not so much :( So, Bo, in his wisdom, goes to our implement drawer and brings back the flyswatter. Now, this probably doesn't sound like much of an implement to seasoned DD veterans, but this flyswatter is thick and heavy. And boy does it pack a wallop! For the first time, I was reaching around trying to cover my rear end. Bo has been so skittish about leaving marks, but this weekend, it seems he has gotten over that. At one point, he stopped spanking, and I tried to get up. He just said, "Uh uh, I'm not done yet." Shocked doesn't even begin to describe what I was thinking at the moment! So, I did end up with a few marks that were gone by today. We have moved forward in our journey, and I think we both feel more confident about DD with each step we take :)